Future

05/05/2025

The future ahead seems so very distant
But deep within I know it'll quickly pass by
For time is incredibly persistent
Oh how it loves to fly
Faster for those with broken dreams
And whom possess little ambitions
When nothing in life ever comes to fruition
And they all burst at the seams

Many dream of infinite wealth
Fortune far as the eye can see
Many dream of status and fame
Influence over many a soul
I dream my heart might once more feel whole
That someone could reignite the flame
Warming the cold, sweetening the bitter
Filling me with glee

Time passes, alas they never come
For they do not exist
And as time does, it shall persist
As I wait for feelings to numb
So many years I've waited
So many years I've endured
So many years wasted
So many years poured
Down the drain that is optimism
Leaving only pain and isolation in its wake
My punishment, my love being a cataclysm
That causes my life to quake

Once upon a time, I had ambitions
Goals to be a good husband
And loving father to a child
Wasted dreams, for now I know when
To give up when my mind goes wild
Now they are just thoughts
Imaginative thoughts
That appear in my head ever so vividly

Perhaps one day my waiting will end
Be it the impossible transpires
Be it my heart retires
Be it something else sparks the fire
Be it my soul elevates higher
Whatever it may be, I hope its pleasant
Closure, a most needed present
Relief from the bearing weight on my body
Preventing me from growing stronger
And my suffering to continue no longer