The day I've dreaded for many years
Is thrust upon me yet once again
The feeling, not long ago a distant memory
Now returning like an old friend
A day full of sorrow, and pain
For I am reminded that I am nobody
And to somebody I am nobody
And nobody means nothing to anybody
I look around, and see the smiles
The laughs and memories being made
By lovers, twinkles in their eyes
And warmth in their hearts
As I gaze down at myself
And realize I have not a soul to care
No love nor adoration to give nor share
Naught but the warmth and fuzzy feeling
That sits in the glass I sip from
The only place of which I can receive
The feeling I have longed for for some time
Smoke curling within my lungs
Soothing my brain, slowing time
I lie awake and ponder my worth
Or rather lack thereof
The pain, and coldness within
Will I ever witness the end?
Could one ever see the value
In someone worth nothing?
Questions without answers
Unanswered for years
I witness joy and love around me
Feelings I'm forbidden to possess
An experience I might never have
I think to myself
It's times like these
I envy the dead