Last night you invaded my dreams
Much like you invaded my life
Tearing me apart at the seams
Not even putting such distance between us
Can I truly escape your sharp edges
Nor your coldness that drove me away
It seems as though this is baggage
I must carry as I climb the mountains
Of troubles I face alone
Like Bel Biv DeVoe -- that girl is poison
But she was my poison
Bad for my health, yet oh so good
She made me feel like a man
Something I had never truly felt
She sold me promises of love
Something I had never truly heard
She had me by the strings, woven to her
Tantalized by her illusory words
Daggers lined with solid gold
My love was blinding
A veil over my eyes
And a casing over my heart
Oblivious to facing Caesar's fate
Oh how love can be a drug
Feel so good yet destroy you from within
Or how it can alter your reality
Making you oblivious to its wrath
How can we let this happen?
How can we let those we love burn us?
It's been 2 years since that moment
When my trust was violated and destroyed
Paranoia fills me to this very day
A wound that has never healed
And even as the haze clears, you're not here
But still hurting me like you loved to do
I no longer feel strong and steadfast
I feel frail, vulnerable, and weak
I no longer feel valuable and worthy
For value is not always just disposed of
Joy no longer fills my soul
The weight is too great for me to equate
I no longer have dreams
I simply exist
Will normal ever meet me again?
Please free my soul from the chains
Please free my heart from the pain
Please free my mind from the thoughts
And let me sleep well again
I'm tired